I Hope I Screw This Up by Kyle Cease

Author:Kyle Cease
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: North Star Way

chapter 13

The Unlucky Chapter

I was just about to actually answer the cliffhanger that I left the last two chapters on, then I realized that this was chapter thirteen and that thirteen is an unlucky number, and lots of buildings don’t have a thirteenth floor because of superstitions. So, just to be safe . . .

chapter 14

Are You Ice or Water?

Okay, here we go:

What if deep down wasn’t a place to live, and it was actually just what you were?

I’m often asked the question “How do I get into the moment?”

This is like a fish asking, “How do I get into water?”

You are the moment. The second you think it’s a place to get to, you cut it off in your mind and create a false obstacle to overcome. Your mind is contained within this moment. Your thoughts, your fears, your goals are all contained inside of this moment.

Whether you like it or not, you are completely, always, only in the now. It will never be something you are able to achieve. Even when you are chasing it, you are in the now. Nothing from your past is ever bigger than now.

You might have a lot of moments from your past that feel amazing. Maybe you can sit and remember a concert. Maybe you remember when you fell in love. Maybe you remember an incredible vacation. You might think the reason you felt so good was because of the external things around you, but that’s not the case. The reason you felt so good was that, for a little while, you completely let go of your addiction to your mind and experienced the moment that you were in fully. You got out of the way of your connection to yourself. These external things were catalysts for you to give yourself permission to feel all of yourself without your thoughts of past and future getting in the way.

As you allow yourself to stop trying to get anywhere and fully accept everything that is coming up, you will discover that there is nowhere to get to. Your mind might bring up a thought, and your job is to just love the thought, not cater to it.

Example . . .

Let’s say you’re sitting on your favorite, or even second-favorite, sofa, and a thought comes up. The thought is this: “OH NO. I HAVE A JOB INTERVIEW NEXT WEEK. WHAT IF I THROW UP ON THE INTERVIEWER’S DESK?”

If you choose to see that thought as a little child and you just tell the thought that you hear it and love it, it will go away. Really picture that when that thought comes up as if it’s a child who said it to you. If a kid came up to you and said, “What if I throw up on the desk?” you’d just be there for them, hear their concerns, and let them express their emotions. You wouldn’t be afraid of them, you wouldn’t run away, you wouldn’t ignore them with an addiction, and you wouldn’t agree with them and start worrying.

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